Wednesday, July 01, 2009
watched threads of destiny with qing ai de pm tday:)
it was really good though i wish it was alot longer and the deaths were portrayed less freakish-ly. a little chilly at the way death was displayed like just-like-that kinda thg. went kino straight after the movie and i bought the novels for it! can't wait t get my eyes on the second part of the book!:D
and i wanna say MY TUTEE IS SUPER KAWAII!
hahah first lesson tday and i'm glad all went well. he's really cute and he talks so i do not have t worry about finding topics and the mom is real nice too! just that, he's really into planets, science, solar system and all and i srsly know nuts about them. he knows all the names of the planets and watches shows on them and reads on them and knows alot more than me! and he's only PRIMARY ONE. he's like super interested in science omgosh and he asks loads about them and all i did was t crap about them with the limited knowledge i know rahh.
need.to.go.read.up.on.them.READ.UP.
(sheese i srsly hate science:/)
but nvm i still like him all the same hoho:):)
okay work tmr. gna sleep rahh and need t hit the books soon.
(reminder><)
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009
anniversary promotion is not as busy as last year but is still making everyone crazy. damn the phone rings whole day long and how i wish i could throw it into the river. and i srsly can't understand why ppl just do not seem t know the exact meaning of being fully booked. full means full we do not lie we have proof la tsk. what's with the attitude and doubt but nvm i tolerate i tolerate rahh.
everyday seems like a dreadful routine but at the end of the day be amazed by how one day can pass so quickly. as the clock strikes again it's a brand new day as it ticks on i become worried on how time can really pass by us just like that. just like that. let time be on my side, i guess sometimes thgs are not easy as what they seem t be.
(sidetrack, eh woman if you are reading, FOOD SOON! after 29th okay?)
and maybe i shd learn t grab hold of thgs as i watch ppl dear t me slip me by, let me not lose one after another. shd really remind myself pills for short term memory, i shd really take the initiative when i have the time a few ppl on the list a few matter i shd get an answer, get down t it soon. procrastinate not yes. are human relationships built so frailly on a flimsy thin piece of string? or on worn out rubber and cold hard metal, unable to bounce back with an ounce of leftover strength or unable t even be bent back to what it used t stand for?
undone drafts and unposted photos i could stare at this screen whole night long and get nthg done.
that's sthg amazing-
except,
no one gets amazed by it anymore.
would you collect sthg that has alr left a tainted spot in your life? and stare at it with disgrace or shd i just forget about collecting that cert?
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Friday, May 15, 2009
clique kbox tday<3
so glad that our monthly outing is working out! that's one day i look forward t every month loves them loads:D even though we are each OTHER(yinxi hoho:P inside joke) but i still love you guys alot hehe. yinxi come from cambodia three weeks later in one piece ah and cyn no matter what happens we're still here for you:) as for pt seeya tmr lol!
anniversary promo starts tday. going back t work tmr shall be prepared t go battle zone alr. rahhhh:/
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Tuesday, May 12, 2009
so many drafts left unposted maybe i shd get back t it soon. and i still havent upload photos i think ppl are getting sick of asking me t upload them:/
maybe it's me who's always like that. unfinished stuff all over. better change better change.
可能如果我學會做到有始有終，我可能就不會失去-。但學會了那可能就再也不是我。。
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Thursday, April 23, 2009
and so hahah i'm back from taiwan whee! finally online after so long past few days were catching-up-on-sleep-time heh. cus quite chiong for work.
trip with parents was good:)
至少能帶他們出下國，雖然我會埋怨，有時會覺得很不公平，但我知道，他們是很疼我的。。
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Saturday, April 04, 2009
eri san is here in sg! yay:)
caught up with her over supper in bugis with miao, micky, rita, rj, weina and zona with alot alot alot of food! hahah srsly is one whole full table until no space that kind! heh very sumptuous:D
was at wheelock for work ystd but lunch that time erisan went over!:D but was on duty so can't talk much. and i have t say superrrrr tired and dead omgosh damn busy. but okay hightlight! i was at section eight, and the first table that came in.. hahaha lim hong geok, tan seiw huang, ang laypheng, lee bee yann!!:O and another chi tcher. I WAS LIKE SHOCKED. hahaha! and it's like 陳老師 my sec1 and 2 hcl tcher, 林老師 my sec3 hcl tcher and 洪老師 my sec4 chi tcher? win man but hahah i miss crez!:( then mrslee was like: "you look very familiar" then when they know who i was alr she was like:"we all rmbr you very well" lololol i left a lasting legacy HAHAHA:P
ko-ed and died tday la sheesh. cannot anymore rahh:(
met all my loves for uhhh teatime tday? at bpp's cafe cartel:) it was good catching up we will make our monthly meeting work yes! and till the next meeting jiayou and study hard! after that let's go k whee love loves<3
work tmr then harumi san's wedding bbq after that. a chiong week but just one more week! YESYES CAN'T WAIT! may the week flies!
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i dno if i'm really tired of working or if i'm really too perfectionist-tic.
or if i'm really sick of others not living up t what they are supposed t do or if it's me who wants others t follow what i do.
but what i know is what i was being taught and therefore i do. so isn't everyone supposed t be the same?
maybe i'm not as hardworking as before maybe i'm starting t slack here and there..
but still i make it a point t finish doing what i shd do if possible.
maybe it's being taken for granted.
tday i was scheduled for work till eleven. at ten thirty cus sect2 both ppl otsukare so become i take over. left like three tables so shd be can do quite abit of closing alr? but only shoyu and tongarashi were kept. condiment tray nv wipe. hot water don't need alr but nv bring t the back, lunch stand menu nv put at all even on empty tables? and it's not like they don't have time t put? but nvm, since i take over i shd do it mah. so topped up station and did what that has t be done then three tables billed and left so cleared and put setting. only then realised those empty tables like a few had no settings? or four person table only two person setting? rahh fine i do. until eleven started putting stand and settings etc by the time i'm done it's like 23.10 alr? ten mins extra of work. okay lo free labour for ten min but i closed sect2 alr at least i feel accomplished. but the trigger was when i otsukare t others, someone said: "you off work alr meh" in a rather accusing tone and still said: " then section2 close alr anot" wah hello i nv close finish i still stay extra ten min for what. rather pissed at that time. late five min counted as late fifteen min but off work late don't count at all unless is extend officially. sometimes i wonder why i still stay on. exact time then otsukare like almost everyone mah. but somehow sometimes i just can't do it. then once i exact time otsukare then section still got minor clearing up in order t close then someone asked me close alr then go.. another extra five t ten min for nthg. everytime also forget it. but so many times down the road alr it's really annoying sometimes..
and last time i do it more willingly, as time gets longer i get more unwillingly cus it seems like no one seems t appreciate it.
okay after ranting i feel better:) just need t whine abit. so it's fine alr life's good:)
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somehow i have this pressing feeling that i have a lot of thgs undone. but it's like every night when i think about it i can't seem t rmbr what needs t be done. and as the next day arrive and as i meet with different thgs i will start t rmbr what i have not done. but at the end of the day i forget again rahh. or when i decide t go t sleep i would rmbr. so thgs keep dragging day after day rahh. this kinda feeling i don't like:(
on a brighter note, eri san's coming sg like in a few hours! yayy:D have not seen her since she went back japan! she's coming t central tmr but i'll be at wheelock:( nvm after work shall go back central with zona and rj and after that shall go eat! think they going victoria street though i dno where but doesn't matter whee it's gna be a happy gathering!
and i've decided like decided decided. shall mug properly after i come back from tw. last chance. hope i didn't make the wrong decision.. and got my kor t be my mugging partner yayy so this yr it'll be good:)
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Wednesday, April 01, 2009
like a ball that get kicks around.
tmr going chijmes. very nice now what? fine you ask me go i go but can they please settle my pay properly.. this month short by like one hundred? i srsly thought of working parttime for quite soem time cus i'm reallly lazy t adapt t a new environment and everythg maybe i shd consider totally quitting..
alot thgs happening at one time rahh life sucks take drugs.
and woman, luckily you're fine:)
家里的事快讓我喘不過氣來了。。
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Friday, March 20, 2009
i lost my keys somehow. and i don't rmbr where i lost it. maybe vaguely i know. maybe i left it on the cab but i really can't rmbr. so many lost thgs recently am i supposed t lose them before i could gain sthg one day?
遺失的東西我要怎么找回來？一件一件從我身邊溜走。。我還能把它們找回來嗎？或許我還能擁有它們的代替品，但感覺不再一樣了。就算如此，我也許還能夠培養出新的情感。。可是，記憶沒了，不見了，遺失了，忘記了。。 我還能怎么辦？
我，原來 活在過去。
仍然 活在從前。。
可是我的 過去，
把回憶 給 遺失了
我還能
存活 嗎？
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Sunday, March 15, 2009
i feel like chopping my nose rahhhh.
i'm not sick. not yet.
but dying alr:(
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when it breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.
It's as wild as that, as raw as an open wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent.
You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it.
can you hear me?
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